you may have noticed a change in address. i bought a little domain name thingy from wordpress and have moved my room over here. apologies for the inconvenience, and thanks for coming over!
part of my reason for doing this was because i had started a work-related blog here, a kind of academic thingy. i started it over summer, when my head was empty and i was stress free, and i felt like writing lots of big words about obscure concepts. now i’m actually back at work, and thinking all day, and i realised i didnt want to do that on a blog as well.
also, it was kind of a false separation. the thinking-academic me over here, and the knitting-personal me over there. they’re not separate entities. so i’m back together, in one piece, trying to attain some balance.
which is the theme of todays post. i’ve said before, im not usually very good at it, and being back at work has really challenged me to find a way, and find it quick. this year looks like being even more busy and potentially stressful as we move into phase two of the Big Project, including implementation of the recommended policy changes that i made to the Flight Deck (executive) at the end of last year. and as a result of what we found out last year, there are at least three spin-off projects to manage as well. i spent a few hours on the whiteboard mapping it all out, making sure to take note of things occuring ‘at the same time’!
(this list got down to 12 processes, and then i did separate plans for each of the spin off projects). im breaking things down as i go into week by week things to do, and ive made this into a Big TO DO list.
this is about the next two weeks worth of work. somehow, having it large and on top of my desk like this is making it easier to keep track of what needs to be done next. because my boss and i like to write about everything we do, i made a list of possible publications that could emerge from all this work. there are 12 possible journal articles on my list. sigh. of course i dont intend to get through them all in a year, i just intend to move through my lists one thing at a time and do what i can. and i cant really complain because we finally submitted the paperwork for my promotion plus an application for a years back dating (i am not likely to get all that, but my boss wanted to ask. he didnt realise i’d been 3 years on the same level and feels bad!). plus i’m all booked for a trip back to the US in june, with 6 days in baltimore and 8 days in new york city.
so i feel like work is under control for the moment, which just leaves me with getting all the personal stuff organised. one of the things i really find hard to balance is other people, and my interactions with them. there is a large, anxiety driven, introverted part of myself that would rather not have anything to do with the human race at all, thanks very much. of course, leave me alone with that person too long and i start to go crazy. sometimes i think i made a mistake moving back here to this town. its close to work and the beach and all that, but, with one or two notable exceptions, i dont have many friends here and i miss the ease of connection and wealth of things to do in the city. it’s also easier to do things by yourself in sydney. here, everything is so family oriented. it makes my skin crawl. i dont know if i can handle it long term. another thing to balance: the commute vs social life. still working on that one.
i also got a bit overwhelmed last week with all the organising for the knitters guild display. i took it under advisement to just have the weekend off and not think about it at all. i’ve answered a couple of minor emails but otherwise i havent looked at my spreadsheets. i know it will all come together at the end, i dont need to organise everything to the enth degree. so i’ve been trying to catch up on my knitting this weekend. i finished the second bunt, after having to rip it and then untangle the yarn. i’ve made two:
yarntini self striping and cherry tree hill variegated sock yarn. thats all im doing, unlike some who are in the grip of bunting fever. i need to get some balance happening in my knitting too, which means getting some lingering projects off the needles. i’m about one black section then the red border away from finishing the ‘different lines’ shawl
and then i will finish the cotton cardigan, and not work on anything else until they’re done. and i’m also trying to fit in lots of singing practice, the ‘osana’ section in the ‘sanctus’ movement of requiem is driving me crazy and it’s meant to be perfect for rehearsal tomorrow night!
but at least these are all good things. i’ve stuck to my food plan at about 90% (i’d committed to 80%), still working out the balance between what makes me feel right vs what i ‘want’! plus starting to work in a bit more exercise. i’m getting help with the housework and doing my own little bit every day. and then trying to make time for lots of cuddles with my lovely puppies.
cant really complain, can you?