i am happy to report that the insanity that pervaded the last post has abated to some extent. it helped to be able to talk about it, and to tell my friends i was in trouble, and have them just listen, or check on me, and tell me it was ok to be where i was. things are still a bit weird, and i am far too stressed out about work, about money, about the meaning of life. im still on a personal emotional roller coaster, and thats probably not going to lessen for a while, i just need to learn to go with it, and still be able to get through the day and do what i need to do. but right now, i feel like lots of balls are up in the air and they could fall in any direction at any moment. its a strange feeling for me.
and it really did help when i stopped taking the antibiotics, the side effects passed fairly quickly, but that was a scary experience. at least it pointed out very quickly the link between body and mood, something i need to remain vigilant about.
i’ve been trying to hang on to normal things, like going to guild on saturday, topped and tailed by breakfast and lunch at orto trading (great place). it was cold in sydney on saturday, and i was grateful for the knitwear as missfee and i scurried along the streets of surry hills.
we had a great meeting, and i felt hugely rejuvenated seeing my knitter peeps again. i didnt get much knitting done at guild itself, but i caught the train home and nearly finished the second sock in the pointelles, finally getting them off the needles last night. they had a little soak
and a block, and now im wearing them, and i dont want to take them off.
they are a perfect fit, although i really need to do a stretchy cast on every time. i made no modifications to the pattern, they are the large size (70 stitches on 2.25mm needles), in the lovely madelinetosh sock yarn in ‘composition book grey’.
i really loved knitting this pattern, it reminded me how much i love Cookie A’s designs. they’re not necessarily easy and theres lots of charts, with no two rows the same, so they’re not mindless, but i think that was what i needed. and i always find her socks really quick to knit, something about the way she sections them off makes you want to just get through these next 70 rows!
there is lovely detail in this pattern, the kind of flower motif at the top that blends into the diagonal stripes, the way the stripes look like they cross over (but dont), the repeat of the flower motif at the back of the leg that comes around to the front of the foot.
these only took me about 4 weeks, which is probably a long time for a pair of socks, considering i knit nothing else in the meantime, but i’ve had a lot going on and some days even knitting seemed impossible.
but these have helped restore some equilibrium. now i just have to decide what to go back to next. it might the ‘colour affection’ in Loft i think. garter stripes, also oddly soothing for the anxious heart and mind.